Ola.. It's another cold day and im still waiting to leave Buenos Aires and get on the road. We went to do our visas for Panama and Costa Rica yesterday. Didnt know that side of the world is damn gorgeous! Again, cant wait to get there. Apparently, Costa Rica is one those countries where ppl love to retire.. Americans, Canadians, a skinny Malaysian girl perhaps? And why not? Similar to Malaysia only, again, no rempit. The properties there are selling like hot cakes. For a modern 1200sq apartment overlooking a beautiful, white sandy beach, it costs only USD110,000.Damn i wish i was rich. And shh.. i didnt know its so hard to write down the things i wanna say when there is a cute guy in front of me, looking and smiling, waiting to check in at the lobby. Oohhh..
By the way, today, im going to pay a visit to the National Museum of Fine Arts where they have a complete room of the best national contemporary art.. That should be fun! It is sooo not me but yet around the city, you could find statue work of art which amazes me like a small girl in a toy shop. How can anyone come up with this kind of idea and why, we cant do the same in KL? Maybe when i go back, i'll be an artist. Haha.. When baby can transform into Optimus Prime or mama will let me keep a hippo at home, that will be the day i become one but till then Adios! The only thing that im good with my hands are rolling(you know what..) Sob sob.. i miss my jo-jo.
And since i have so much of me-time now, i started to think. For long, ive been keeping myself in a nutshell, away from my feelings.. far away from him. Its not that he broke my heart that made me this way. I lost the ability to trust anyone. It's worse.. a lot more that just shattered and been stampeed. Thanks to indo songs that could make me cry faster that i could drive, i cracked everytime. Im no idiot but why did i let him step all over?Since i was born, i was well protected by my dad till i met a DUDE (literally,no name pls,hehe) and he took good care of me.. for the next 6yrs till he got married, a wedding ceremony that i love, honestly, for the alcohol that got me thru the night. Then i met him.. and i thought maybe he'd take care of me too. I was wrong and now im paying the price.. So now, the question is, how would i know when am i supposed to be at ease and when am i supposed to be on guard?
By the way, today, im going to pay a visit to the National Museum of Fine Arts where they have a complete room of the best national contemporary art.. That should be fun! It is sooo not me but yet around the city, you could find statue work of art which amazes me like a small girl in a toy shop. How can anyone come up with this kind of idea and why, we cant do the same in KL? Maybe when i go back, i'll be an artist. Haha.. When baby can transform into Optimus Prime or mama will let me keep a hippo at home, that will be the day i become one but till then Adios! The only thing that im good with my hands are rolling(you know what..) Sob sob.. i miss my jo-jo.
And since i have so much of me-time now, i started to think. For long, ive been keeping myself in a nutshell, away from my feelings.. far away from him. Its not that he broke my heart that made me this way. I lost the ability to trust anyone. It's worse.. a lot more that just shattered and been stampeed. Thanks to indo songs that could make me cry faster that i could drive, i cracked everytime. Im no idiot but why did i let him step all over?Since i was born, i was well protected by my dad till i met a DUDE (literally,no name pls,hehe) and he took good care of me.. for the next 6yrs till he got married, a wedding ceremony that i love, honestly, for the alcohol that got me thru the night. Then i met him.. and i thought maybe he'd take care of me too. I was wrong and now im paying the price.. So now, the question is, how would i know when am i supposed to be at ease and when am i supposed to be on guard?
3 comments:
"So now, the question is, how would i know when am i supposed to be at ease and when am i supposed to be on guard?"
im so sorry sweetie... there just isnt any way to find out but the hard way...
sweets, at least you're working on a new journey. i say to hell with everything else, you seriously don't need parasites and negative vibes in your life.
toodles.
You write very well.
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