it has been 4 days since i got here in dominical.. and things are still the same. been raining everyday in the afternoon and i miss being on the road. honestly i do! well, to keep myself occupied, i found a new love. its called directv.. hehe. it is something like astro, only better! they have every channel that you can imagine and the bonus point is their radio station. it provides the title, artist and the album of the song that is on at the moment. i love it.. love love love it. hard habit to break by chicago, right before my eyes by southside hustlers, real girl by nutya buena, black horse by kt tunstall.. one minute i was doing salsa, then switched to trance then love songs then on the bed, reminiscing on my past life (yawn.. it seems so far away now, im way over it thanks to you my dear, you know who you are)then back to tv in english and maybe spanish (yes..im learning). everywhere i go, i would fall in love with something..even when i thought i was gonna die of boredom while waiting for HIM and the car, i found myself a new toy to play with. lucky lucky lucky me.. or am i that easy to be pleased?
by the way.. hantu and i went for horseback riding to nauyaca waterfalls. obviously, it is nothing compared to angel falls but i had a good time with the horsie horsie.. mine named pacheko. cute yea? he's 10 years old and very very slow (like me when im stoned) and loves to eat (like me again!) every 100 mtrs ride, he'll stop to eat. im the last one to arrive at every stop! thats how slow he was.. nauyaca falls is great, the main guide looks like pacheko and the one who asked for my number reminds me of zaid a.f.. eeww.. i kinda like horse riding but i cant stand the pain on my ass. it hurts even now! im lack of fats you see, so papa suggested to put cushion if i wanna take up riding. no, gracias.. maybe till im 50kgs.. thats my next mission in life.
being here, having all the time to myself makes me wonder and think about my life a lot. i dont wanna think about it, i hate thinking about it. the problems i have, the future problem that may arise and the ones that ive dealt with. at the moment, there is one. how open are we to talk to our father about love life? not that im in love right now but my whole life, i dont talk about it, at all. i just let them find out by themselves and it wasnt a proper way either. im older now and i wanna be open to him (since i could drink openly here, why not talk about it?) but i feel awkward and this goes to my mother as well. do you have a problem like this, friends? how do you handle it? should i just say it out or keep it to myself? lemme know coz im tired.. too tired to think.lazy too perhaps. maybe it is for the best if i give up.. maybe its better to be on my own.. so far, it has been great (didnt have that much of a choice do i?) but i know i am missing something every time i see a couple passing by, holding hands and embracing each other..this is not me talking.
enough! of these crappy things.. i must get back to my beer, pool and ipod and think of the next thing i could play with ( double meaning!)wondering alone is not an ideal thing to do when you are in costa rica. i should have fun! damn the ports, the clearance, the country, the security and bureaucracy.. i will try to give you fools a hell of a time when you are in mine! dont let me catch you in my territory ok.
posted here are some pictures i took in dominical.. resort is lovely, beach is a surfer's paradise, food is great and the people are friendly.it's not you dominical but i cant wait to get out of here and head to alaska!
p/s adik.. you are right. i do sound like im talking to myself when i write. wonder if that is good or bad..
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